life sucks ass

so my dad is still in the hospital. i think this is one of his longest visits. they thought he was having a heart attack the other night, but i don't believe he did. i'll probably go visit him again this weekend, even tho i despise the hospital.

also, the realtor called today and left a message saying the bank would not agree to the short sale. fucking assholes. so now that means foreclosure and then, most likely, bankruptcy. fucking brilliant.

i'm so sick of having nothing but shit happen to me and my family. and i'm so angry and jealous of how almost everybody else i know has such a wonderful life and all these 'blessings' and good stuff happen to them. yes, i love them and am happy for them, but i just can't talk to them. i'm disgusted with life and my situation.

i won't even start about my thoughts on god right now.

the office

just watched last thursday's episode. that last scene was awesome! how brilliant was john krasinski? so so sweet.

i love jim and pam :)