lurking lurker who lurks
May. 14th, 2009 08:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
planet_tatersso a well-known fanfic writer wrote an original story and self-published it. pretty fucking cool.
i've been a lurker on his lj for over a year (found him via tw fic of course - he's one of my absolute faves - brilliant). been following the whole process of editing and publishing of his book, but wasn't really interested in the story itself, and never read what he posted of it. once he was finished, i downloaded the pdf for free because... well because i could. and it was free. but again, i had no interest in actually reading it.
but last week our internet went down at work. and this hell flowed into this week as well. for lack of anything to do during my down times, i brought the pdf to work so that i at least had SOMEthing to read.
surprise? i LOVED it. besides the two twilight books i read, this is the first time in a long time that i have read an actual original piece of work. not harry potter, not doctor who, not torchwood. while reading it, i kept thinking to myself 'why have you stopped doing this? why don't you read actual books anymore?' i love reading, i love books, i always have. i really need to start doing that again. constantly reading only fandom related crap certainly isn't doing me any bit of good.
but tonight i actually FINISHED the book, and i remembered my problem. i hate it when books end. i just hate it. i get pulled into the story, and fall in love with the characters and settings, and then it just goes away. and almost never in a way that makes me feel done, or satisfied, or fully complete. and that makes me sad and depressed. pathetic, isn't it? yes :(
regardless, i so enjoyed the story, and so enjoy this guy's lj and life and process, that i decided to purchase the book itself. i feel like he's earned it. i read his story. i loved it. he should get compensation for the bit of happiness he created for me.
plus, i feel like i have been involved in this in some small way. which is really stupid because i SO haven't. but still... even tho i'm not one of the 2500, i'm sure i'm among lots of other lurkers out there like me, who feel like we've shared and taken part in something special.
i've been a lurker on his lj for over a year (found him via tw fic of course - he's one of my absolute faves - brilliant). been following the whole process of editing and publishing of his book, but wasn't really interested in the story itself, and never read what he posted of it. once he was finished, i downloaded the pdf for free because... well because i could. and it was free. but again, i had no interest in actually reading it.
but last week our internet went down at work. and this hell flowed into this week as well. for lack of anything to do during my down times, i brought the pdf to work so that i at least had SOMEthing to read.
surprise? i LOVED it. besides the two twilight books i read, this is the first time in a long time that i have read an actual original piece of work. not harry potter, not doctor who, not torchwood. while reading it, i kept thinking to myself 'why have you stopped doing this? why don't you read actual books anymore?' i love reading, i love books, i always have. i really need to start doing that again. constantly reading only fandom related crap certainly isn't doing me any bit of good.
but tonight i actually FINISHED the book, and i remembered my problem. i hate it when books end. i just hate it. i get pulled into the story, and fall in love with the characters and settings, and then it just goes away. and almost never in a way that makes me feel done, or satisfied, or fully complete. and that makes me sad and depressed. pathetic, isn't it? yes :(
regardless, i so enjoyed the story, and so enjoy this guy's lj and life and process, that i decided to purchase the book itself. i feel like he's earned it. i read his story. i loved it. he should get compensation for the bit of happiness he created for me.
plus, i feel like i have been involved in this in some small way. which is really stupid because i SO haven't. but still... even tho i'm not one of the 2500, i'm sure i'm among lots of other lurkers out there like me, who feel like we've shared and taken part in something special.
