me and my job
Dec. 5th, 2011 08:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
planet_tatersone of my co-workers, who is also one of my closest friends, handed in his resignation today. i've known about it for a long time now, and i was dreading this day because now it is really real. i'm so fucking depressed :(
of course i'm happy for him and excited and proud that he is moving on to something new and different, but i'm also feeling really selfish and upset about him leaving me. he's pretty much the only thing that keeps me sane at work, and i've been struggling a LOT lately. this isn't going to be easy for me at all.
i'm also worried that they are going to expect me to fill his shoes, but there is no way i can do that. i don't have the same knowledge and ability and skill set he has. i just don't. i can't do what he does, hard as i may try. i'm a good, but average employee. and he is one of those workers that just stands out above all the rest. i'm the only designer left and i'm freaking out. they can't afford to fire me at this point, but i'm afraid they are going to finally realize how lacking i really am.
i don't know how i'm going to get through the day without him there. both personally and professionally.
of course i'm happy for him and excited and proud that he is moving on to something new and different, but i'm also feeling really selfish and upset about him leaving me. he's pretty much the only thing that keeps me sane at work, and i've been struggling a LOT lately. this isn't going to be easy for me at all.
i'm also worried that they are going to expect me to fill his shoes, but there is no way i can do that. i don't have the same knowledge and ability and skill set he has. i just don't. i can't do what he does, hard as i may try. i'm a good, but average employee. and he is one of those workers that just stands out above all the rest. i'm the only designer left and i'm freaking out. they can't afford to fire me at this point, but i'm afraid they are going to finally realize how lacking i really am.
i don't know how i'm going to get through the day without him there. both personally and professionally.
