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getting through it
Jul. 13th, 2009 12:23 amso i still broke down into tears several times today and yesterday, but there have been some things that have made me smile.
1. the askworld players did a wonderful fix-it post. it made me cry and it made me laugh, and i wish i could thank every last one of them for helping so many of us in fandom. even those like me who don't actively participate.
2. went to the rents today and picked black raspberries with my dad. we spent a long time outside in the amazingly gorgeous weather and i took tons of pictures. i wanted to talk to him about it, but he has yet to watch. i brought the eps down for him today, so hopefully we can talk soon. it was nice spending time with my mom and dad and papa during an emotionally difficult time.
3. reading other people's reactions. knowing that i am not the only one who has taken it SO hard and is still breaking down over it. and that i'm NOT being silly or ridiculous (since it isn't REAL) and that it is OKAY to be feeling this way.
4. reading several fix-it fics that deal with tw: children of earth AS IS, but still have ianto live. very clever and very good. thank you!
5. caerdydd. a welsh tv show that gareth david-lloyd had a small part in recently. some lovely person put his scenes up on youtube and watching it made me ridiculously happy. i'm not sure why, but it just made me feel better and smile and feel hopeful. i want to see him in more things, especially if it is going to make me feel this happy.
thank you to all these people!
1. the askworld players did a wonderful fix-it post. it made me cry and it made me laugh, and i wish i could thank every last one of them for helping so many of us in fandom. even those like me who don't actively participate.
2. went to the rents today and picked black raspberries with my dad. we spent a long time outside in the amazingly gorgeous weather and i took tons of pictures. i wanted to talk to him about it, but he has yet to watch. i brought the eps down for him today, so hopefully we can talk soon. it was nice spending time with my mom and dad and papa during an emotionally difficult time.
3. reading other people's reactions. knowing that i am not the only one who has taken it SO hard and is still breaking down over it. and that i'm NOT being silly or ridiculous (since it isn't REAL) and that it is OKAY to be feeling this way.
4. reading several fix-it fics that deal with tw: children of earth AS IS, but still have ianto live. very clever and very good. thank you!
5. caerdydd. a welsh tv show that gareth david-lloyd had a small part in recently. some lovely person put his scenes up on youtube and watching it made me ridiculously happy. i'm not sure why, but it just made me feel better and smile and feel hopeful. i want to see him in more things, especially if it is going to make me feel this happy.
thank you to all these people!
